keep thinking

I didn`t. I didn’t think. I don’t think. I don’t do anything.

I`m tryiing to cook for myself. I don`t feel like eating, so I don`t feel like cooking. I read recipes and try to setlle on something that doesn`t repel me, and I force myself to eat.

It`s all part of my dsiintegration as a person, as the person I used to be.

Who did I use to be?

Pat, It turned out to be a disaster today. And no one came. I changed my heading. It was a hard day.

I’ll be better tomorrow.