I am in deep trouble and I need help. I am so far sunk in listlessness, so deep in depression that I can hardly move. I need a shove.
I remember a line in the movie "Tom Jones" when the lady of the house rallied the drunken sods lying about in front of the fire with the dogs: "Rouse yourselves from this pastoral torpor!" and another one, from the novel "Mr. Roberts" by Thomas Heggen (1918-1949), describing the route of the supply ship plying the South Pacific during World War Two, going from "Tedium to Apathy and back again." (Okay, I had to look that one up; I couldn't remember apathy.) And I remember my husband expressing his frustration at the then artistic director who was slow choosing and casting the next season and who finally made a move:
"At last!" Bill said, "he has moved from inertia to lethargy!"
torpor a state of physical or mental inactivity; lethargy: they veered between apathetic torpor and hysterical fanaticism.
tedium the state of being tedious
tedious too long, slow, or dull: tiresome or monotonous: a tedious journey
apathy lack of interest, enthusiasm, or concern
lethargy a lack of energy and enthusiasm: periods of weakness and lethargy
(Medicine ) a pathological state of sleepiness or deep unresponsiveness and inactivity.
inertia a tendency to do nothing or to remain unchanged
(Physics) a property of matter by which it continues in its existing state of rest or uniform motion in a straight line, unless that state is changed by an external force
limbo an uncertain period of awaiting a decision or resolution; an intermediate state or condition
YES! I am in limbo and I need a shove, an external force. This is my parallax view of January, February and March of 2015,
parallax the effect whereby the position or direction of an object appears to differ when viewed from different positions
This is not where I expected to be. I'm trying but the cold weather isn't helping. And my birthday is coming up. I don't mind being old. Right now, I mind being cold.