hope springs

But sometimes hope gets trampled. Take last night, for example - as far as  you can. The Blue Jays lost so I won't be watching the World Series next week, that is, IF they had won last night AND tonight. Too much to hope for, I guess.  Remember that line of Emily Dickinson's: "Hope is the thing with feathers" and that, of course, makes me think of the opening of the movie "Forest Gump" with the feather floating and wafting about. (I think the music on the soundtrack is called, simply, the Feather Theme.)

The good news is (here comes Pollyanna) that I will have more time to work at my screenplay, which at present is cocooning in my head and maybe getting ready to break out. Things are starting to happen to it. I remember the first time I became conscious of what goes on during my creative process. I was working on a short play at an interested theatre and suddenly, or so it seemed to me, I got wet behind the eyeballs.  Discovery! When the ground seems to move beneath your feet, when the sky opens up, when the light flashes, or, in my case, when I got wet behind the eyeballs, that's when the reason behind the play, behind the idea that I'd had to write that particular play, not only under my surface, but under the surface appearance of things - all that suddenly became apparent. The real wonder was not the recognition of it but the amazement that it was there all along, that it was intended, whether I was aware of it or not. 

Call it serendipity.  Why me? Why then? Why now?  Why at all?

I know.  Sometimes.

 

one of those days,

Like, when isn't it? One of those days. And it has already begun. It's Friday, Matt's day, plus plus plus.

Anon, anon.

Later:  How can anyone sign up with a "like" when I haven't said anything yet? Well,first, John Denver:  "Sunshine almost always makes me happy/ sunshine almost always makes me high."  The sun is shining; it's a beautiful, crisp, fall day and we live in hope...that the JAYS WILL WIN THE GAME TONIGHT.  I hope so.

I'm celebrating birthdays this weekend, beginning today with my friend and mentor who divides his time between here and Cleveland.  He's in Cleveland today; I'll invite him for dinner next week. Tomorrow I will celebrate with a friend by taking her to a movie - a rare treat for both of  us,and a birthday treat for her. Sunday I will serve brunch to another birthday girl and her husband and a mutual friend.  I'll do a frittata; I'm good at frittatas. Sunday evening Matt will come for Sunday dinner; he has chosen chicken. God knows what the Jays will be doing by Sunday and He hasn't told me yet.  I just have to wait and see.

In the meantime, I am living a double life.  My characters in my screenplay are coming to life inside my head and I begin to hear their voices, saying things that only they -- each one -- can say.  And I am seeing scenes that didn't exist before. It's great when I get to this stage because even when I'm not writing, I'm writing.  If all goes well, maybe by next week I can put something into the hard drive....I hope.

I'm hoping for the Blue Jays right now.  Bless us all.  I hope.