yesterday' s news

Okay, so I missed yesterday. I was almost up and running, had the title and everything and then bogged down in my blog.  It was going to be about Elias Canetti and I will get back to him another time, but I had to have my notes. I love his memoirs-cum-autobiography, four of them altogether. I have just two and one of them looks like a hedgehog  with all the little post-it notes sticking out of it.  Inside it's worse, with notes and underlines and comments all over the pages.  I don't call that defacing a book, I call it making it mine. When I go to re-read, I follow my leads. Twice people have borrowed a book, different people, different books, and lost them.  In each case they replaced the book but not my notes.  Disaster.  The book was no longer mine.  I remember one book I read had such wide margins that there was tons of room for my notes - I ended up writing an entire play based on the notes, comprising both rebuttal and tangents.  The book was The X-Generation by Douglas Coupland.  The play is called Moon and Murna.  It's had a staged reading at the AlumnaeTheatre in Toronto.  I'm telling you all this because of Elias Canetti.  In my copy of my favourite book of his, The Secret Heart of the Clock, there are not only underlines and notes, there are boxes and directives  pointing out play and story possibilities. You can understand why I had to back off and wait till I had more time, plus the book in front of me to blog on.  I think blogging is like tap-dancing, not that I know much about tap-dancing.  I'm so old that my mother thought I looked like Shirley Temple (who?) when I was a little girl, and made me take tap-dancing lessons. I learned the basic Times Square, I think it's called, the basic step-shuffle-step and I can still do it to the tune of "The Good Ship Lollipop".  I had more permanents before I was seven than any little head should bear.  Well, as i was saying, I think that blogging is like tap-dancing. Lay the groundwork, plot the basic steps, and you can improvise forever.  And a-one and a-two...

 

 

 

 

inner dialogue

Whatever you want to call it,  however  you want to describe it, the inner dialogue is the ongoing undercurrent in your life, the cerebral traffic you can't seem to halt, until, as Sharon Butala said in her wonderful book The Perfection of the Morning, it slows down or stops, or goes silent -- something - and you're at one with the universe (I think). .  It may be like a massive, silent overdrive during which all your systems are go, with one goal.  Maybe like Flow?  Well, I'm not there yet.  I realized this morning, just a half hour ago, as I lay awake waiting for my eyes to click open for the day and thinking all the while, that my inner dialogue has ramped up.  It's not slowing down at all.  I'm enjoying it, actually, because the random thoughts are randomer-er and are going to prove very useful for the day. I just hope I remember them all.  I guess I have to get out on the primeval prairie as Sharon did and wander till I wonder where and who I am.  It's not going to happen.  I'm not much of a walker any more, not enough to take me out of myself.  Well, member C.S.Lewis, the urgent command in which Narnia book?  Farther in and farther up, no --  farther up and farther in. Don't need legs for that.  Just keep going. Curiouser and curiouser. Randomer and randomer.  Are you following me?