Finally: my Generic Blog Christmas Letter....must write it today so that I can send hard copy to my computer-illiterate friends

 I've been struggling with it in my head. It was a difficult year for me but not significant in the way that life is for other people who achieve so much both in themselves and through their children.  My kids, i.e. my grown children, are just fine, thank you, into the solid, consolidating years, past the wild surmise of youth, but realistic in their idealism.  My grandchildren are amazing, not only creative but nice people.  i can't help but quote Kahlil Gibran here:

Your children are not your children.
They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.

You may give them your love but not your thoughts, 
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, 
which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them, 
but seek not to make them like you.
For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.

You are the bows from which your children
as living arrows are sent forth.

The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite, 
and He bends you with His might
that His arrows may go swift and far.
Let your bending in the archer's hand be for gladness;
For even as He loves the arrow that flies, 
so He loves also the bow that is stable.

How I love my living arrows!  I cannot even begin to strive to be liked my grandchildren.  (Obviously I will have to trim this blog into a snail letter, but I can indulge myself here.)

Now, about me, for those who do not read my blog or read my letters: I finished a hard, hard seven-month course in screenwriting that took me to the middle of July, with a deadline every 24 hours, often hard to keep up with because I took a theatre tour to London in January with the Stratford Festival; a cruise to Alaska in May; attended the Writers' Union annual meeting in Vancouver in June; bounded in and out of Stratford going to the season's plays; then, a visit with Matt to the summer h one in Maine of daughter Kate and husband Jonathan; a one-day trip to New York in September for the table read of a play of mine I've been trying to show for ages; a drive with a friend to Boston in October for another visit to Kate; and then a week in New York for the longed for, hoped-for public staged reading of that play - to complete disaster and disappointment .

Hopes dashed. But hope strings eternal and i am beginning to recover.  It ain't over till it's over. This year isn't over either, not yet. Too soon to say Happy New Year.  I hope you have a good holiday season, not merry exactly, but thoughtful and considerate.

We go on we go on.

i is for inexorable

I know I know, I've already done i.  But I was thinking this morning and I have to do inexorable, too. 

                     Rock Me to Sleep

By Elizabeth Akers Allen

Backward, turn backward, O Time, in your flight,

Make me a child again just for tonight!

Mother, come back from the echoless shore,

Take me again to your heart as of yore;

Kiss from my forehead the furrows of care,

Smooth the few silver threads out of my hair;

Over my slumbers your loving watch keep;—      

Rock me to sleep, mother, – rock me to sleep!


Backward, flow backward, O tide of the years!

I am so weary of toil and of tears,—      

Toil without recompense, tears all in vain,—   

Take them, and give me my childhood again!

I have grown weary of dust and decay,—   

Weary of flinging my soul-wealth away;

Weary of sowing for others to reap;—   

Rock me to sleep, mother – rock me to sleep!  (I miss my father, too.)


Let's hear it for Google! Memory and emotion pulled up the first two lines of this (not the entire poem here) and Google found everything else for me, including information about the poet, aka Florence Percy, who first published at the age of 15. Elizabeth Akers Allen (1832-1911) published several books of poetry and had three husbands, one of whom died during the Civil War.  Rock Me To Sleep was a favourite during the war. And that's all I have to say about that.

My point and purpose was to try to understand some of what I'm feeling and remembering.  i'm sure I'm not alone. It's that time of year. Inexorable.